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Monday, January 3, 2011
Friday, February 27, 2009
Inspired Again
I had walked away from this for awhile, but now I am back. Some updates:
We are still trying to conceive. This is now our 4th cycle of actively trying. I have the obvious concerns and doubts, but I think that we will be fine. I also feel that if we not not get pregnant under our own steam, we will not go further. I can do whatever I can to keep myself healthy (6 weeks with no coffee... :-) ) but ultimately we are not willing to go to crazy extremes to have our children. I do believe that things happen the way the are supposed to happen.
We have not told our friends that we are trying, I do not want to deal with people asking me on a regular basis how our sex life is. I am, however, very transparent with both my sister and my mom. It does mean though that I have offered slight untruths to people when they have asked why we don't have children and whether or not we have plans to reproduce. I hope that I will be forgiven.
One very interesting thing.. before we started trying to conceive, I was always able to feel when I was ovulating, but since we 'took the condom off', I haven't been feeling the slight cramp that always signals ovulation. Is it a case of 'the watched pot never boils'? Yesterday, though, I felt very slight 'pinches' on my lower right side. So we did the baby dance and we shall see.
My sister and her babies left in the middle of January and we miss them desperately. She is now living with my aunt and planning a move to her own place. She needs to find a home and be settled so that the kids actually know where they live. She will be getting a place to rent for September. I am happy for them but sad for us. We shall miss them awfully. We are missing the changes and different stages that the girls are going through. Miss V has now figured out the concept of 'yesterday' and 'tomorrow'. How sweet. They are going to be coming for a 2 week visit in the beginning of May, it doesn't seem like enough, but we will take what we can. Then I think that they will be back in July and will travel home with me when I go to Canada this summer. Can we say 'Road Trip'? Excited.
We are still trying to conceive. This is now our 4th cycle of actively trying. I have the obvious concerns and doubts, but I think that we will be fine. I also feel that if we not not get pregnant under our own steam, we will not go further. I can do whatever I can to keep myself healthy (6 weeks with no coffee... :-) ) but ultimately we are not willing to go to crazy extremes to have our children. I do believe that things happen the way the are supposed to happen.
We have not told our friends that we are trying, I do not want to deal with people asking me on a regular basis how our sex life is. I am, however, very transparent with both my sister and my mom. It does mean though that I have offered slight untruths to people when they have asked why we don't have children and whether or not we have plans to reproduce. I hope that I will be forgiven.
One very interesting thing.. before we started trying to conceive, I was always able to feel when I was ovulating, but since we 'took the condom off', I haven't been feeling the slight cramp that always signals ovulation. Is it a case of 'the watched pot never boils'? Yesterday, though, I felt very slight 'pinches' on my lower right side. So we did the baby dance and we shall see.
My sister and her babies left in the middle of January and we miss them desperately. She is now living with my aunt and planning a move to her own place. She needs to find a home and be settled so that the kids actually know where they live. She will be getting a place to rent for September. I am happy for them but sad for us. We shall miss them awfully. We are missing the changes and different stages that the girls are going through. Miss V has now figured out the concept of 'yesterday' and 'tomorrow'. How sweet. They are going to be coming for a 2 week visit in the beginning of May, it doesn't seem like enough, but we will take what we can. Then I think that they will be back in July and will travel home with me when I go to Canada this summer. Can we say 'Road Trip'? Excited.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Excited with my progress
Last night as soon as the clean up from dinner was complete, I sat down and got back to my course. I was able to complete the last Q & A and get it submitted. Yay! This morning I was going to sleep in a bit because I had stayed up late, but alas, my brain was on overdrive and I had to get up and get some ideas out of my head. I usually keep a pen and paper next to my bed, but with my concern that the wee ones would get a hold of it, I have stopped that particular habit (to my detriment). I have to haul my behind out of bed and by the time I get downstairs, open my computer and open a window to type in, I have lost half of my amazing thought (even if I don't run into someone on the way that simply says good morning). It is tempting, at that point, to go back to bed and see if I can recreate it. But since I am up already, I may as well write down what I can remember, and then while I am here, I may as well check my email.
Aargh...
I think that I might crawl back into bed for a half hour or so until the wee ones awake.
Aargh...
I think that I might crawl back into bed for a half hour or so until the wee ones awake.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Feeling Back in the Saddle
I started a wee bit late in the day, but I was able to complete and send in two Q & A assignments for my Breastfeeding class. I am very excited. Now on to the parent handouts... only 17 of them! :-p
Tomorrow morning I think that I am going to print up my Life Experience Application and get that sent off as soon as possible. That will make me feel waaaay better about not getting much done in the past few months. I can do that kind of work while the babes are running around... although V seems to need a wee bit more exercise than I have been giving her...
A few afternoons in a row now she has had a lot of difficulty settling and has even _not_ slept. Gasp! God knows, I need the afternoon nap. But this morning I need to go and pick up the car at the mechanic, so off we went. A 2 1/2 yr old and a 1 1/2 yr old, no stroller. They did very well. I brought the sling in my bag, just in case M decided she could not go even one step further, but they both made it all the way there with n'er a complaint. And guess what? V slept this afternoon!!! So, I guess tomorrow, we will be going for another, at least 1 hour, walk. Good for me too, it gets me out of the house and getting some fresh air and seeing some more of our new city. I must say, it is a bit weird to go out without a stroller... man we spend so much money on those damn things and then we find out that they need to exercise and would rather not be in the damn thing anyway.
So, back to the baby making... This afternoon when I went to the toilet, things were a bit slippery down there. So I checked out my mucus and it was a wee bit egg white like. So we will see if we can nail it tonight. ;-) But it is getting late now and bed is calling...
Tomorrow morning I think that I am going to print up my Life Experience Application and get that sent off as soon as possible. That will make me feel waaaay better about not getting much done in the past few months. I can do that kind of work while the babes are running around... although V seems to need a wee bit more exercise than I have been giving her...
A few afternoons in a row now she has had a lot of difficulty settling and has even _not_ slept. Gasp! God knows, I need the afternoon nap. But this morning I need to go and pick up the car at the mechanic, so off we went. A 2 1/2 yr old and a 1 1/2 yr old, no stroller. They did very well. I brought the sling in my bag, just in case M decided she could not go even one step further, but they both made it all the way there with n'er a complaint. And guess what? V slept this afternoon!!! So, I guess tomorrow, we will be going for another, at least 1 hour, walk. Good for me too, it gets me out of the house and getting some fresh air and seeing some more of our new city. I must say, it is a bit weird to go out without a stroller... man we spend so much money on those damn things and then we find out that they need to exercise and would rather not be in the damn thing anyway.
So, back to the baby making... This afternoon when I went to the toilet, things were a bit slippery down there. So I checked out my mucus and it was a wee bit egg white like. So we will see if we can nail it tonight. ;-) But it is getting late now and bed is calling...
Still Tired
I have been napping in the early afternoon just after the babes go down for their quiet time. Two times now someone has called and woke me up. I'm sure that they could hear the groggy sound in my voice. It doesn't help that I went to bed late and was up early. I have been having difficulty going back to sleep after A gets up.
So, that means that I haven't been getting much studying done. I get to the coffee shop late in the afternoon and read email and people watch for a little bit before getting back to business. And then I get only a wee bit done before I head home to have dinner with the family. I think that I need to revamp something so that I can focus a wee bit more.
I had a drink of wine with our neighbor last night, it was one glass of wine and I sipped it very slowly over the course of 4 hours. I am only 8 dpo and it is a wee bit early to test right now but I have still peed on a stick twice already... just curious, I was wondering how soon after ovulation these early testing things work. I actually don't feel pregnant though, I know that it is actually too early to 'feel' anything but if I was going to go with woo woo, then I would say that I am not pregnant this cycle. But I have been cutting back on my coffee intake and basically taking care of myself lately, for the 'just in case'.
I have been having serious house envy right now. I really want a larger house with a yard... like really want... really want a yard... I am going to see a house tomorrow to see what people are trying to sell and for how much money. I don't know if anyone will give us a loan yet and if they would, really how much would they give us? It is something that I will have to look into.
I know that everyone was hoping that we would not move for a little while, but really, as great as the location is, the house is lacking in a few ways... one we pay $2600 to 'rent' something and the other major thing is the back yard, it sucks, it is not very inviting at all and we are not able to send the kids out to play and not worry about them. So, it will do for now, but if we are going to stay here even another year or so, I would like to own something.
Sorry babe.
So, that means that I haven't been getting much studying done. I get to the coffee shop late in the afternoon and read email and people watch for a little bit before getting back to business. And then I get only a wee bit done before I head home to have dinner with the family. I think that I need to revamp something so that I can focus a wee bit more.
I had a drink of wine with our neighbor last night, it was one glass of wine and I sipped it very slowly over the course of 4 hours. I am only 8 dpo and it is a wee bit early to test right now but I have still peed on a stick twice already... just curious, I was wondering how soon after ovulation these early testing things work. I actually don't feel pregnant though, I know that it is actually too early to 'feel' anything but if I was going to go with woo woo, then I would say that I am not pregnant this cycle. But I have been cutting back on my coffee intake and basically taking care of myself lately, for the 'just in case'.
I have been having serious house envy right now. I really want a larger house with a yard... like really want... really want a yard... I am going to see a house tomorrow to see what people are trying to sell and for how much money. I don't know if anyone will give us a loan yet and if they would, really how much would they give us? It is something that I will have to look into.
I know that everyone was hoping that we would not move for a little while, but really, as great as the location is, the house is lacking in a few ways... one we pay $2600 to 'rent' something and the other major thing is the back yard, it sucks, it is not very inviting at all and we are not able to send the kids out to play and not worry about them. So, it will do for now, but if we are going to stay here even another year or so, I would like to own something.
Sorry babe.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Tired - Coffee?!?
I have been oh so very tired lately. I have been cutting back on my coffee intake over the past few weeks and drank my last one a couple of days ago. That is the most likely culprit to blame for my excessive tiredness. I am so very glad that I am just hanging with my sister's girls in the mornings, although, it would appear as though they need to get just a bit more activity n the morning, which means, so do I... ! But honestly, I am not sure that I would be able to really concentrate on school work in the morning.
This morning, I 'pretended' sleep while the girls played around me. It was lovely, otherwise I would need to take a nap after they have gone down for their nap. What am I going to do when I do get pregnant and go through the first trimester sleepies?
I am now sitting in my favorite coffee shop, drinking tea and getting ready to settle into a few hours of studying. I would really like to submit another assignment this evening.
I would really like to get all of the requirements for my associates degree complete, get licensed in Texas and be on track for getting licensed in California before baby is born. Getting a lot done before conception would actually be ideal. Then I would not have to deal with pregnancy brain.
Best laid plans of mice and (wo)men... ;-)
This morning, I 'pretended' sleep while the girls played around me. It was lovely, otherwise I would need to take a nap after they have gone down for their nap. What am I going to do when I do get pregnant and go through the first trimester sleepies?
I am now sitting in my favorite coffee shop, drinking tea and getting ready to settle into a few hours of studying. I would really like to submit another assignment this evening.
I would really like to get all of the requirements for my associates degree complete, get licensed in Texas and be on track for getting licensed in California before baby is born. Getting a lot done before conception would actually be ideal. Then I would not have to deal with pregnancy brain.
Best laid plans of mice and (wo)men... ;-)
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Capacitation and Communication... who knew?
A very interesting site which explains the process that sperm need to go through in order to be able to fertilize an egg: http://www.embryology.ch/anglais/dbefruchtung/weg03.html
I recently came across this word again in my studies and realized suddenly the importance of this process to A and I. It basically means that the sperm needs to hang out in the female genital tract preparing itself, getting ready for the big job. It appears as though the process begins in the male but the majority of the 'stripping' takes place in the female.
So while my little egg is hanging out, sending out come-hither signals, (http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?sec=health&res=9D0CE4DF103EF931A35757C0A967958260), A's boys are getting hyperactive whippin' their heads and tails around.
Maybe this is directly related to the male/female reproduction dance. Think sexy lady; laying around waiting for her man... then think dude; racing in the door, stripping off his clothes and... whippin' his head and tail around. Hmmm.... communication and capacitation.
I think that we had the sperm there in time for them to strip and head for the egg this time around, but... my ovulation discharge was a little bit weak this time around. It needs to nourish and speed A's boys along as well. I am hoping that it was at least kind to his boys. It can be nasty, killing them with acids and sending them in the wrong direction (maybe they should just damn-well stop and get directions - lord knows the egg is trying to direct them... are they listening?).
Wow, how do babies ever get conceived?
Oh well, we will have to see whether the stars were aligned properly.
I am not really particularly keen to chart my BBT and the such like, I guess that I will if need be, but wouldn't be amazing if it just happened the way it was supposed to?
I recently came across this word again in my studies and realized suddenly the importance of this process to A and I. It basically means that the sperm needs to hang out in the female genital tract preparing itself, getting ready for the big job. It appears as though the process begins in the male but the majority of the 'stripping' takes place in the female.
So while my little egg is hanging out, sending out come-hither signals, (http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?sec=health&res=9D0CE4DF103EF931A35757C0A967958260), A's boys are getting hyperactive whippin' their heads and tails around.
Maybe this is directly related to the male/female reproduction dance. Think sexy lady; laying around waiting for her man... then think dude; racing in the door, stripping off his clothes and... whippin' his head and tail around. Hmmm.... communication and capacitation.
I think that we had the sperm there in time for them to strip and head for the egg this time around, but... my ovulation discharge was a little bit weak this time around. It needs to nourish and speed A's boys along as well. I am hoping that it was at least kind to his boys. It can be nasty, killing them with acids and sending them in the wrong direction (maybe they should just damn-well stop and get directions - lord knows the egg is trying to direct them... are they listening?).
Wow, how do babies ever get conceived?
Oh well, we will have to see whether the stars were aligned properly.
I am not really particularly keen to chart my BBT and the such like, I guess that I will if need be, but wouldn't be amazing if it just happened the way it was supposed to?
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